Monday, December 3, 2012

A spiritual orphan

The Rebbe was handing out quarters for anyone who worked in summer camp. A 20 year old girl wanted to get a coin very much. The problem was she worked in a school with the bookkeeping, she didn't work in camp. On the other hand she was recording camp payments because the school had a summer camp. She decided to go.
She's about 3 people from the Rebbe and her father see's her. His face turns white. She realizes she made a big mistake. In her mind she hears her father say "mit dem bistu nisht meiner"! He's disowning her! "Should I still go? I'm doing such a terrible thing! Should I get out of line? The Rebbe will definitely call me back! I just wish the ground under me would open up..."
When she's standing in front of the Rebbe, the Rebbe gives her a huge smile. The Rebbe's whole face lit up. Actually the whole 770 lit up! And the Rebbe said "Du bist doch meiner"!
Someone asked her afterwards what did the Rebbe tell you? She answered: "Ah gezunten zumer, Brachah vehatzlacha". 
"But the Rebbe said that to me too! What else did the Rebbe say?"
But how can she say it?
On the way home her father didn't say anything. It must have been the compromise: I won't scream at you, but I'm not going to ask either...

Bderech efsher 3 ways to understand this story
1. The Rebbe cares so much about this girl. She's about to get it over the head big time, so the Rebbe steps in and saves her.
2. The way the Baal hamaaseh took it: The Rebbe was saying "what are you afraid of? That he's disowning you? But you're mine"! 
3. The Rebbe actually agreed with the father. She should never have gone on line. And she would have been called out on it by the Rebbe. But the moment she felt completely worthless, and she was a nothing. And she was disowned at that moment she became the Rebbe's. 
כי אבי ואמי עזבוני וה' יאספני

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